Lost

So it's almost the end of the year already. The end of my first year of college. Going to college has been a unique experience for me. From meeting new people, to experiencing a new level of freedom never exposed to me, college has been a mental roller coaster. Classe have, of course, gotten much harder since high school and the courses run at an accelerated rate. But that's no surprise. We've been told that from the beginning it will get harder from, here so enjoy it while you can. With this being said, I feel as though I am missing out on the "college life" because the social events and interactions are at a low here. Despite these things, there are multiple things I like about this university. I love the friends that I have made here and the biology program here is well acclaimed. The ups and downs of college have made me come to a decision that is very hard to come to. I cannot decide whether to transfer to a school farther from home, or toughen up for three years and graduate from Lewis with a biology degree. I have yet to make a final decision but this constantly has me wondering whether I would rather have an active social life and healthy mindset versus putting myself through a rigorous three years and walking away with a degree from a highly acclaimed program. This is a very tough decision to make because although I am grateful for all that Lewis has had to offer me, I might be saying goodbye. When you know something is just not for you, it becomes overwhelming and you don't know what to do. I am just hoping the best for myself and hope to figure out everything, not just school wise, but also my personal obstacles that I have been going through for the past year.